
I arrived at the Westin Kierland to a private pool cabana decorated in birthday balloons and more of my favorite peeps!

Tracy's b-day dinner at the fancy Deseo restaurant at the Westin in Scottsdale...

Life-sized Ricky Boy!!!! I couldn't take the full-sized frame on the plane...so I settled for just Rick Springfield's head!!!!

The 40's ROCK!
Sometimes words simply fall short.
This is one of those times.
It's taken me more than a week now to sit down and sift through what I want to share from my glorious 40th celebration.
After reading the rough draft, I realize some of it is too personal--and will most likely bore you to tears.
But I will say this: the highlight of my 5-day birthday celebration amounts to a few simple words.
I feel loved. I am loved.
And my life is packed with people who really care about me.
You have no idea how long it's taken me to really believe this. Well, 40 years, I guess.
I was reminded of my old self just last week, in fact, from yet another high school friend I reconnected with after 20 plus years.
I asked him how he would have described me back in high school. He replied, "Tormented."
Thank God I'm not that same person now. I think that's why this 40th birthday was so significant.
It officially marks the "Healed Tracy," or at least the "Healing-in-Progress-Tracy."
So here's how the day went down:
I woke up Thursday, October 16th to a teepeed front yard in hot pink and black crepe paper, balloons and a big ole "Happy 40th Tracy" sign.
Two girlfriends down the street, in their pajamas at 6 a.m., were the designated decorators. I LOOOOVED it!
The day continued with amazing emails, beautiful cards and thoughtful gifts from friends and family -- personal visits with two great girlfriends, two basketball games of my son's, and dinner with the family.
And then there was the official 40th Birthday Trip to Arizona, the weekend I will never forget.
My hands were trembling when I landed in Arizona. I was so uncomfortable being the center of that much attention. My girlfriend Michele noted, "Tracy, you have a really tough time 'receiving.' Stop. If you don't accept it, you will rob us of this joy!"
By day two, my hands stopped shaking, and I fully embraced the role of "Birthday Girl."
I'm attaching pictures to show you my fabulous girlfriends responsible for this over-the-top resort celebration.
From a balloon-filled cabana by the pool, to the massive suites on the golf course, to the practically life-sized framed picture of Rick Springfield, to the spa treatments and smoothies, to the fancy dinner wearing my tiara, to the duet I sang with my former co-host Kaley at the Ocean Club later that night...the weekend was filled with so much laughter and love, I could barely take it in.
The blessings continued later Sunday night when our family friends from our old parish hosted dinner for me.
Again, I LOVE these people.
Perhaps the most indelible moment, though, happened during a conversation early Saturday night where we five girlfriends shared what "attached" us to each other. Without divulging too many details, suffice it to say that one person's kindness and trust can create a circle of it...allowing another woman to reach out to someone else...that person then shares it with another...and voila, best friends are born!
On Monday afternoon I returned to Texas absolutely giddy, reviewing the pictures and video in my new camera a million times over, recounting to the kids and Frank every detail of the weekend.
And I kept catching myself repeating the same phrase over and over... I feel so loved.
What a gift. And what a 40th birthday.
~ Tracy